Come What May, and Love it...

I got a text yesterday from the man who sets up appointments with my stake president. For those of you who don't know what that means...The stake president is the one who will receive a letter letting me know if God has found me worthy of baptism. So when I received a text yesterday asking if I could meet with the stake president...I had a momentary freak out. My letter has arrived. Now I just have to wait for a time when I can meet with my stake president to see what the letter says. God is teaching me (but more-so teaching my mother) patience because it would be nice to know right this second what God has planned for me. Typing that (it would be nice to know right this second what God has planned for me) gets me thinking...wouldn't that be nice if such was the always the way. If, all of the time, we knew what God had planned for us right this second. Thomas S. Monson said, "Our problem is that we often expect instantaneous solutions to such challenges, forgetting that frequently the heavenly virtue of patience is required." I feel good in my heart. I feel...patient. I'm okay to wait for a few more minutes, or hours, or days, to see what God would have me do. I've been waiting years to see what God would have me do, so I can keep waiting. I'm becoming rather good at it! I'm so very glad that God will never rush us into anything. He lets us be patient so that we can have a more fulfilling experience. Had I been rushed into baptism, rushed through repentance, rushed into marriage, rushed into having children I would not have had any experience that was worthwhile. Because of my having to wait to get baptized, I have grown in every aspect of my testimony. because my repentance took time, (and still continues to be a daily aspect of my life) it means more to me once I'm completely forgiven. because I've had to wait to get married, I have found my relationships with others are deeper and more meaningful and I've been able to really focus on what I want in a future spouse and focus on what I need to do to become that future spouse myself. Because I've been having to wait for children of my own, I feel strongly that these children will be loved dearly and appreciated every minute of the day because of how long it took for me to receive them! And I've also learned parenting skills from my sisters that can help me be more ahead as a parent than having just rushed into having children. So, I'm grateful that God is teaching me patience because anything that is worth having takes time. So, what are my thoughts? Am I nervous? Am I going to be disappointed if I have to continue to wait?

I am actually not nervous at all. I fasted and prayed for peace and to feel okay with whatever God's answer to me is. And I feel that peace. And I know where that peace comes from, "Now the Lord of peace himself give you peace always by all means." (2 Thessalonians 3:16) I don't worry about my future. As long as I am striving to do what God asks me to do, He's got me in His hands and He will do as He sees fit to do with me, but I know whatever He sees fit to do with me, it will be great! It will make me happy and make those around me happy!

Either God will say, "okay, you're ready!" and I will get baptized, marry the most wonderful girl in the world, have children and live happily ever after (that is attainable, Happy Ever After is actually possible with God) Or God will say, "you still need to wait. Give it another year." and I will wait another year, get baptized, marry the most wonderful girl in the world, have children, and live happily ever after. The outcome, with God, is always going to be the same, I WILL be baptized into Christ's church. I WILL be married to a pure, righteous, beautiful daughter of God. I WILL have children. I WILL live happily ever after. God has promised these blessings to me and I WILL receive them, I may just have to be patient, but I WILL get there.


"Ye cannot behold with your natural eyes, for the present time, the design of your God concerning those things which shall come hereafter, and the glory which shall follow after much tribulation.

For after much tribulation come the blessings. Wherefore the day cometh that ye shall be crowned with much glory; the hour is not yet, but is nigh at hand."